Sorry for not posting yesterday. Given my recent bouts of suicidal behavior I hope I didn't worry any of you too much. I actually was feeling pretty good, I just got really busy and time got away from me. I don't know that my depressive cycle has passed completely yet, but it's definitely pulling back. I've been able to smile and laugh again, and I'm feeling generally positive.
I want to take a small moment here to acknowledge that AnxiousWriter from the blog Warrior, not Worrier nominated me for the Liebster Award. I feel so honored. Actually it was while I was in the process of writing my post for that that I noticed an up turn in my attitude. The questions I had to answer forced me to think about happy things, and recall some good memories. I have the post ready to go, I'm just waiting to hear back from one of my nominees.
Oh the changes positive thinking can bring out in me! I've known this since I was a child, but I've always had a really hard time adjusting my own attitude. I'm planning on doing some research on why that is and ways to correct it soon, possibly even today, and writing an article about it.
Sometimes it's just really hard to remember the good times that I've had underneath all the crap I've been through. It's hard to look forward to the good things to come, when even the good stuff requires mountains of effort. Sometimes I can't imagine the light at the end of the tunnel, let alone see it.
Of course, now that I'm more or less out of the funk I've been in, I feel like I've stepped out of the tunnel into the sun. My goals are all still a ways off, and there are many more dark tunnels to go through before I get there, but for now I can relax a little and enjoy the scenery.